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Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

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Very Fat Cat Gets Stuck In Doggie Door

The Oregon Humane Society recovered a 20.2-pound stray cat that was found halfway stuck in a doggie door Wednesday in Gresham, Ore. 

"I heard quite a ruckus when I went into my garage," said Jadwiga Drozdek, who cares for six cats at her Gresham home. "It was hilarious to see this big cat struggling to get in. I helped him out of the door and gave him a plate of food on the patio."

The cat was described as "unusually large" by the Humane Society and was nicknamed "Goliath."

 

The Humane Society had planned to put the cat up for adoption, but a neighbor of the owner who saw the report on TV has claimed the cat and said he had been missing for six months. The neighbor was to pick up the cat on Thursday.

The Oregon Humane Society will add a free bag of low-calorie cat food with the adoption.

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i think this is going to be my last entry, as i create a new life for myself. i'll be really alone for a while and i'm really scared to leave my old one behind but i don't know what else to do. i'm so hurt and scared that i can barely carry on but i know i have to. goodbye livejournal, goodbye old life. 

"Stab My Back"

Now we're broken on the floor
She just wants me to share her
It hasn't been this way before
She just wants me to dare her

The phone rings
And she screams

Stab my back
It's better when I bleed for you
You walk on me
It never was enough to do

I can't get past her
Falling fast
It's true
It hasn't done a lot for you

And every time he held you close
Yeah, were you thinking of me
When I needed you the most
Well I hope that you're happy

The phone rings
And she screams

Stab my back
It's better when I bleed for you
You walk on me
It never was enough to do

I can't get past her
Falling fast
It's true
It's better when I bleed for you

I hope that love he gave you
Was just enough to save you
You nearly broke my heart
Just look at what you're tearing apart

It's better when I bleed for you
It never was enough to do
It hasn't done a lot for you

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Disenchanted

Gently pick me up

Place me on your lap

Make sure I’m ready to give you

The sounds you crave

The way only you can tune me

Gently tightening and releasing

The metallic knobs on my neck

To obtain your ideal notes

And create the night’s melody

Explosion of harmony

Beautiful

     Sorrowful

         Masterful

Graceful strumming, enticing feeling

Until I don’t sound the way you hoped

Anymore.

So caress my strings

Make me sing

And put me away for the night.

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have fun torturing me assholes.

"False Pretense" by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

(It's time to let it go)

The world's got a funny way of turning round on you
when a friend tries to stab you right in the face
Losing faith in everything I hoped and knew
Don't sweat it, set off false pretense

Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
Yeah, and it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
ca-ca-ca-cause you know

All alone you know you've got, you've got the best of me
You were wrong and I'm laughing right in your face
I cannot believe you claimed you were my family
Don't sweat it, set off false pretense

Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
Yeah, and it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
ca-ca-ca-cause you know

(It's time to let it go)

I can't seem to understand it how you've turned out to be so cold
It's funny to me how you've turned into such a joke

aubrey my love i hope you read this:

you are the most amazing person ever and i'm really really really glad we're friends again because you were at peoples houses and you still helped me while i was like beyond depressed to the point of a break down. i love you so muchh <3 thank you for making me feel worth something...

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omg tonight was so much fun. great food. my family is amazing. theres nothing like a huge, loud italian family. erik and i had SO MUCH FUCKING FUN!!! like all my cousins are in college and stuff so we played pool and talked and watched our drunk parents danced. then i started dancing to the song from Grease ("i got chillsss, they mulptiplian...") and everyone was like whoaaa wooooo yeaaa! it was SO MUCH FREAKING FUN! a definite plus from the rest of my weekend. i love erik for coming <3